Nobody reads this. That’s okay with me. Its where I write my inner most thoughts that I secretly want everyone to know because I’m a brat. & I’m too much of a pussy to post these things on facebook or Twatter. Tonight was interesting. Your whole seize the moment thing got my panties all in a bunch. My friends think you’re cute, and you kiss me in front of our managers at work. I simply love it. So much that I want more, I will forever be wanting more. More of you, more for us. I trust you. I trust you because you have not yet led me to believe otherwise. Also you promised. You promised me you would make me happy. What a stupid thing to promise, if you know it’s not possible unless there were dyer changes in comparison to the way things are supposed to go. Maybe you’ll end up going to college around here. Rae changed her mind just like that. One split second decision changed her whole life and future. I want you to be happy. More than anything. It scares me. How much I care, how much we’ve grown in this short period of time. How much we’ve progressed and got to know things about each other. I like your stories. Every single one interest me in a particular way. I’m going to miss you. It’s only one week. I hope you end up missing me too. I’m not sure if I can go a week without seeing that beautiful smile of yours, teeth or no teeth. It’s Perfect. I don’t want to become distant but I don’t want to scare you with being overbearing. I just want to talk to you about it. I kind of did, that’s when you promised me that you would always be there to make me happy. That’s what I don’t get. I’m falling for you. Hard. And this time I know it’s real. And it’s worth it. Goodnight darling. This is it.